Everyone was so excited for us. But even though this was the cheapest house we had looked at through our searching, the thought of going into debt for the next 30 years had a way of weighing down my joyous celebration.
I’m the kind of girl who likes the minimum of everything so that I’m never actually in debt. And since I already have a house, two mortgages seemed outrageous in my mind. After reviewing the finances, we found that we are in fine shape, but then we had to convince the mortgage lenders of this same thing. After running around and getting copies of every document I’ve ever had all the way down to my first grade report card, we got the loan and a big thumbs-up to buy our dream home.
It seemed like we were out of the woods on the stressful part of this home-buying process. We had signed the papers and we had the keys to our new pad. Then we drove to the house — our new home.
Upon entering this time, we started discussing all of the things that needed to be repaired or replaced. Then we started discussing the moving process. Then we started talking about adding a garage, and before I knew it, I had gone from loving this house with every fiber of my being, to hating this house that wasn’t even fit to live in, in my new opinion. I was overwhelmed by everything that goes into fixing up a house for new owners. Isn’t it funny that we can look at something one day and be completely disgusted by it and the next day, after an attitude adjustment, see it for all of the good that it holds?
I struggled with my bad attitude all week long, and after praying about it and repeatedly repenting to my husband, I started to look at our home in the light that I had originally seen it in. All of the beauties of our new home started to flourish in my mind — the open floor plan, the double oven to cook for all of our company, the joy of going from a one-bathroom house to a three-bathroom home, the hidden tunnel that goes between the kids’ bedrooms, and the fact that this is a new beginning with my wonderful little family. This home is very much so worth the struggle of making it feel like home, it just took a better mind-set to get me to see that.